I need to be more thankful

I have been feeling very ungrateful lately, and may be even a little bit sorry for myself. I miss my husband as he is working all the time which leaves me to put Gracie to bed by myself. He usually gets home just in time for a quick story and then lights out. Some days I feel completely exhausted and feel like a single mother. My Gracie has an abounding amount of energy and keeps me hopping all day long. And it is no secret I haven't felt the best this pregnancy. Things are getting better but still not perfect. I have found myself complaining all the time and not appreciating this exciting event in our life. I had a doctors appointment today and he was asking me how I was doing, my first thought was to go off on just how miserable I was, when he said, "after all this is definitely a miracle baby I still can't believe it. " I felt so small at that point. I have been so caught up on poor me that I haven't taken the time to appreciate how lucky and how grateful we are. Gracie and I spent the rest of the afternoon having some quality time together and I kept thinking how could I be complaining this is all so worth it. How could I not want another little baby in our life. Sure she wears me out, but she is so much of my life. She makes my life great. She wakes up laughing and usually goes to sleep laughing much of it because she finds great pleasure in torturing me. She likes to squeak a loud plastic chicken at me in the morning just to wake me up and she thinks she is so funny. (We can thank Nana for that one...but we will get you back ha ha) And we can't get into bed until she has shown me all of her new tricks and all of her stuffed animals and dolls are tucked in somewhere in the house. But life would be so boring without it. So since this month is a month of being grateful. I decided I needed look at the positive and not the negative. (Deven will be so excited).